It's been awhile! I have decided that I need to get my creative juices flowing again, so I have chosen to get back into writing. I do love to write, almost as much as I love to talk. Even if no one is listening, I am talk, talk, talking. As it is my first post in awhile, I may or may not be feeling a little rusty. Some of these sentences have been written and rewritten no less than 10 times. Nonetheless, my intentions of this blog post is kind of a promise to my readers. Let us begin.
This past year and a half has been life changing. I moved across the country (again), went through my first true heartbreak, had a few financial setbacks, experienced the loss of a loved one, fell in love, fell out of love, and much much more. But most importantly, I have grown. Like a tree, I have grown. All of these experiences have humbled me, they have changed me. I am not the same person I was a year and a half ago. Sometimes it is hard to hold my head above the water, but here I am still treading along.
Recently, I have been very depressed. Maybe that is why I am choosing to write again. I want to spread happiness and laughter and hope. My goal in writing these blog posts is this: I want to make you happy. I want to make you laugh. I want to provide you motivational words to get you through the day, because I know how you feel. You are not alone. It is an easy thing to say, I know. Believe me, I am the last person that likes to ask for help but sometimes it does not make sense to suffer alone. The burden of life does not fall solely on your shoulders. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and move forward. That is all you can do, move forward.
One of my favorite poets of all time is Emily Dickinson. Even her name is poetic! So today, I would like to share one of my favorite poems with you. It goes like this:
If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
If you laugh at my posts, if you cry, or if you find inspiration, then I have done my duty. So that is my promise; I promise to try.
What am I like now? Well I am the same curly headed cutie that I was August of 2016. That was my last post by the way, it does not feel like it has been that long! Life is flying by at the speed of light. I would like to think that I have the same tastes in music, movies, and food but it is hard to remember things like that. My mind still works at 1000 miles an hour. Always bouncing from topic to topic, constantly analyzing. Imagine a room filled with shelves of books. Now imagine someone taking a bunch of papers, and throwing them in the air. What now? They are scattered all over the floor, some dirty, some torn. That is an accurate description of my brain. Unorganized would be a good word for it. Much like my bedroom! Don't they always say that your bedroom is a direct reflection of your personality? I read that once. Not so sure if I agree, but that's okay.
Going back through and reading some of my old posts, I can't help but cringe. Too much details in some, not enough details in others. However, hindsight is always 20/20, and there are definitely a lot of edits that would improve the quality of the posts. We live and we learn! And then we die.
I forgot how hard it is to format these damn pictures. Thorn, meet side. It looks so nice and pretty until you switch to mobile version, and then everything is scrunched up and gross looking. Huh, I can kind of relate to that. Selfies vs. candid portraits. Oooh, topic idea.
Note to self: Probably not a good idea to write a post under the influence of any type of caffeine! I am 2 cranberry red bulls deep into this night shift. Another topic idea! I am chalk full of them tonight. We are getting to the point in this post where I am just rambling on about nothing, so I think I will wrap this up.
At the end of the day, only you can make yourself happy. You have a choice. Wake up in the morning and say to yourself, "Today, I am going to smile. I am going to be happy, and I am going to thrive." I know that is a hard thing to do sometimes, and I know you may feel like giving up. But I beg of you, do not give up. The feelings, they go away. It gets better. Life is all about how you react to a situation. So, choose happy.
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